I have struggled all day
whether to write this one or not,
thinking it might be too painful to read for some of you
or even offend those of you who may be thinking
“what the hell does she know about how we are feeling or what we are going through?”
My intention is in NO way to make anyone hurt anymore than they already do or have.
I just thought it would be nice that you know
that by me talking about
the battles you are all facing or have faced,
that the rest of us are feeling your pain
and praying with every fiber of our being for each and every one of you.
So here I go…
I know of two special people at this very moment,
living the last part of their lives
in the tranquility of a hospice
surrounded in love
among their family and friends.
There are others who come to mind
who have already done this voyage
and I can’t help but think of all of them
at a time like this.
Can’t even imagine what thoughts
can even run through their families and friends minds
in the mix of it all.
All I know is that every last moment spent with them
is being held like a precious time capsule.
Savoring every last word,
or holding on for dear life
to that final but gentle last touch.
Knowing whatever past experiences good or bad
that ever happened,
doesn’t mean a damn thing right about now.
As they slowly fade away,
the agony of them slipping away
is nothing anyone can actually describe.
It is a loss of a soul
whose memories will always
remain alive in our hearts.
No words of comfort really help
at a time like this
but yet we all send words of encouragement and love,
not in the hopes of a miracle
but rather that those
whose hearts are hurting with the loss of someone so dear,
know that they are not really alone.
Those we are loving and losing and so very tired
are just about ready
to find their way to God’s gate.
They know it is time to leave
but it’s in the eyes of those who surround them
that makes that final goodbye a safe and peaceful journey.
In the end,
we say our farewells with heavy hearts,
and no real reason why it had to be like this
questioning all reasoning as to why God chose them
but once all is said and done,
and the tears continue to flow with no sense of relief
and we struggle with letting go,
the fact will always remain,
that they knew right to the very end
they were so very loved!
To those who are going through this now:
I send my heartfelt love and prayers
with every ounce of strength you may need.
For anyone who has already been through this:
I send you my admiration and respect.
Empowered by the courage it took
to carry yourself through the pain
for those you have already said your goodbye’s to
and continuing to keep
the spirit of their souls alive!
I was worried as to how I would put an end to this one
which seemed to consume my brain most of the day
and knowing how difficult this even had to be
for some of you to read.
I just wanted those who can relate
to know that we who have stood around you
know the burdens you carry or have carried.
So as gentle and compassionate as I can be
and in the memory of those
we are losing,
and those we have already lost.
God willing we will see you on the other side!
until we meet again my friends…
God Bless you all~